You ever just sit back and look at your life and wonder the f*** have you been doing all this time. I mean I recently turned 3o and I don’t feel like I have accomplished much besides obtaining my bachelor’s degree (I know that is a commendable accomplishment and I am super proud of myself!) and having children. It’s almost like the moment I began my family, I lost myself in a way. I’m sure many parents can relate. We work to provide a decent life not only for ourselves but for our children as well. As parents, we are constantly tending to our kids needs and the millions of things that just seem to pop up like school projects, random growth spurts leading to more shopping trips, hair products, medicine, school lunch, etc. Not to mention the monthly bills we have, unexpected auto repairs, co-pays and the list goes on. It’s hard as hell trying to be a parent today. Shit to be a damn bill paying human being is hard. I’m constantly doubting myself thinking about all of life’s what ifs. What if I would have made different choices, maybe my life would be different. What if I would have waited to have children, maybe I wouldn’t struggle so much today. It can be overwhelming to think of the plan you had for your life and then the reality of what is your life. God forbid you take into consideration anyone else’s opinion of your life and that’s just some more fancy dancy bulls*** to add to your already overthinking analytical brain. I mean I hate this s*** sometimes but then I realize everything happens for a reason. I may not be where I want to be right now but that doesn’t mean that I won’t. My kids don’t always have everything they want but they damn sure have what they need. I am blessed even on days where I struggle to see it. Who doesn’t want to be financially secure with a great career that provides excellent work/life balance? Don’t all raise your hands at once! Besides I can’t even see you!! We all strive for the same things but at this point if we are already a parent, we just want our kids to be happy, healthy and stable. I will continue to be the best mom I can possibly be and vent and cry or blow my shit as needed BUT I will stay encouraged because I know I am meant for greatness! I am a damn mom!! That s*** holds weight…I’m like the super hero of all super heroes!! Be encouraged!!